Yep. That's correct. Day 30. It is officially my last day of GalapagueƱo blogging. Wow. WOW! Thirty days have passed. I am kind of in shock. But, here we are I guess. How time flies... So, that being said, I guess this would be the time that we do a little cheesy reflection piece on what Galapagos means and has meant for me. So, sit back, grab a cup of tea, and let's do just that.
Galapagos has been a significant experience for many reasons. Firstly, after studying abroad in Costa Rica and definitely after going to Spain, I heard a lot of, "Well, it's good you're getting this out of your system now!" or "Do it while you're young and can!" or "What a once-in-a-lifetime experience!" I hated these comments, still do. They did and do imply that horrific notion that living abroad and traveling the world is a one-time gig for people in and right out of college. However, after meeting people like my friend William when I lived in Spain, a robust giant from South Africa with long hair who had visited 60-some countries and had packed up with his wife when she was four months pregnant to move to Guatemala to study Spanish---well, meeting people like this told and tells me otherwise. It is only once-in-a-lifetime experience if you let it be.
Nonetheless, I am not William or other people I met, and I was afraid--no terrified--that it WOULD be the case for me. Little girl who talked big and ended up settling for a mediocre job and accepting the mundane plot life had handed me while I sat at a shitty desk job thinking about all of the things I SAID I was going to do while my passion rotted away. Essentially, that was exactly what was happening to me. I'll never say that I was "settling in" to Jersey (it is the only place I have ever lived that never felt like "home"), but I will say that I was settling for Jersey. I was not happy, in fact a far cry from it. I was the epitome of discontent and if you want the real scoop---misery. I had a boyfriend, a good steady job, my own apartment, lived by the beach, lived in the middle of a travel hub...but, in my daily life my passions were WASTING AWAY bit, by bit, by bit. It seemed the harder I tried to ameliorate the situation within my every day, the more I rotted and the more I became nervous for change.
Finally, one day when the main factor that was holding me there walked out of my life, I realized I was in limbo---I was neither committing to the things I was dreaming of, nor committing to the person who was dreaming of me. So, within a week of that day, I set my departure day, and I began putting the pieces of my life back together while also putting together the pieces of the puzzle that would be my exodus. I did not know exactly where, but I knew when and that was all that mattered. It was as though that spark of desire which had been flickering was ignited within me and I knew that I was either going big, or I was going home; I chose the option one. I was NOT going to be that girl sitting unnoticed on the sidelines shuffling papers for the others' adventures. If I was going to be shuffling anybody's papers, they were going to be mine, en route to do something amazing.
I had been compiling a list of opportunities abroad for five years. So, I set myself to work updating the list, exploring my options, scouring for new ones, and getting things in order for my departure. I made sure the lease for the apartment I had to find (literally in a week when my roommate sprung the news on me that her significant other and the dog were moving in against my wishes) was a six month lease or less. As luck would have it, I found exactly that with the first apartment I looked at. I made some calls and figured out where I was going to camp out once I rolled out of town. As luck would have it, my brother had a sofa and an open heart. I began putting money away and figuring out where I could go and for how long. As luck would have it, all of that saved up vacation time was going straight into my bank account. It seemed with every step I took off the beaten path, luck was following right behind me and tossing out gold coins along the way.
I applied for this job on a whim, with a start date in January, shortly before getting rid of the majority of my worldly possessions, moving out of my apartment, packing my car, and driving 1,300 miles cross-country by myself in the dead of winter with no life plan. Amidst interviews for other interesting positions, out of the blue I received an email that a position here was now available for March. My stomach jolted with excitement as I scrambled to pull up not only the job description again, but also photos of this random place in the middle of nowhere called San Cristobal. One look, and a few squeals of delight, and I interviewed.
I had been talking for years about wanting to give teaching English another try as I had LOVED tutoring in Spain and, as circumstance and luck would have it, I landed the job. I applied for my visa (that was a project in itself!), it was approved, and booked my plane ticket one week before I was set to arrive on the continent. I had no idea what to expect and although I was terrified about the idea of being confined to an island of 6,000 people for six months, I was intrigued by the possibilities, enthralled by the mystery that surrounded this mythical place, and lured in by the challenges of life on a volcanic rock in the middle of the ocean. I was sold. I packed my bags and landed in South America seven days later.
So, here I am again at a point in my life when my existence and self has undergone a complete transformation. I am living in an entirely new country, in an entirely new culture, in an entirely new apartment, with an entirely new career, and an entirely new support system. And, despite everything being "entirely new," coming here has felt so familiar, like I've lived here my entire life. The sensation of speaking Spanish rolled off my tongue with the comfort of almost my native language. The sound of the waves crashing upon their aquamarine selves felt like it had been an every day fixture in my life. The rundown buildings and the gritty streets and saunter of people seeming to have all the time in the world.... This, THIS was home. This IS home. THIS is what I do. THIS is my life. It isn't a pit-stop in an existence of immobility or a one-time-chance---it is my passion. Galapagos is my playground. It is belief in myself. It is peace of mind and heart. It is smiling every single day and genuinely believing it when I say, "I LOVE MY LIFE!!!!" It is waves and sand and sunsets and nature mixed with frustration and grit and limitation and restriction..... It is the adventure that I craved from the bowels of my existence and the murky depths of my weary heart.
Galapagos IS....well, it just is.
AUTHOR'S NOTE: I'd like to thank you, my dear readers---whoever and wherever you may be---for sharing in my adventure, even if it has just been in the form of opening your browser. It has been an honor writing to you and has given me a consciousness that might have otherwise been ignored. You have allowed and forced me to take a closer look at all of my surroundings both physically, intellectually, and emotionally; as I always say to any student I have---opening your eyes has opened mine immeasurable. So, I leave you now, some of you for forever, but for most probably not. I thank you again. It has been a privilege. Before we depart, let me just say one last thing--the adventure is just beginning. From my America to yours, so long!